Without solution...

Many people seek their "soul mate" I sometimes seek only one soul. I feel the empty emptiness, and I lose myself looking at nothing. people look like wrong pieces of a big puzzle do not fit, leaving nothing by the sides who knows the right play if it was lost, because they did not find it or for being there too long to realize that she was right Anyway, the side that they see me does not make sense. the song I'm playing makes me realize that maybe I'm not part of it and that the efforts to fit me in may have been worthless ...

The fear

I'm afraid of losing anything I have, to lose what people do not feel for me, this anxiety that haunts me, the discomfort is to be alone, not being able to cry, feeling guilty for something I did not.
I'm afraid of not being able to suffer in peace, no longer regret the existence of not having to get outside, to isolate me people, it could be sad.
I fear for the simple fact that I can not want it anymore for me and a slight stumbling bring me back all that I have.

Pink perfume

I can no longer face things alone, the beautiful rose is in front of me, so close and so far , so beautiful and so at the same time makes me very sad and at the same time.

It strengthens my spirit when I hear his words even when not treat me well or just ignores me , more important to know that it is there, know it exists makes me feel good when I'm near I feel quiet and the problems simply disappear , it can not realize it more its beauty and fragrance enchant me and satisfy my anxieties and worries vanish .

I hope one day to touch her and follow in his footsteps and smell her perfume that calms daily.

Not good

Today I am feeling a bit down, through no reason I think people like that sometimes for no reason speak without realizing that we are not good and it affects us strangely.
I woke up feeling lonely as it has been in recent times, but lately it has been affecting me in a strange way, "get well", "I want your best" is the advice I have heard constantly, but like to feel that way? I wonder every morning what happened to me because I am so, and realize that much has'm not that smiling face and upwards I went one day, just sometimes I want to cry and I feel the worst person in the world, I feel that I was betrayed by those who said I was important to them, people only come to me when they are in need, I do not usually expose my problems but now I see many people who are taking their lives and those thoughts also carried over in my head, even with help professional and some medicine I have to take, even with this support I have received not see solutions at all and I do not know think I'd rather find out for myself endure the pain and put the tears out, I do not know why but I hope one hour it stop and stop people from wanting to improve, this pressure I suffer to improve ends making me worse.
I appreciate the concern of everyone, but I need my space, I feel this way because after that it does not get worse, it will not do ask me to look good, simply because they are not good things happening.

Following ...

The fuckin 'around , people thinking hat you owe your life


to them , some can not do anything without realizing they do not necessarily
want anything in return.





around, try to isolate my thoughts so you can stop the tears.



together remembering the good things every day, sometimes the tears are
stronger than us and drip without my control.



plagues my days , silence makes it seem like everything is bigger and scarier ,
I know me more , I do not know what to do.



'll exist



At this time I am reclusive my will is to silence the voices


Nostalgia has been my only true friend , spent a lot of time


The memories begin to want to perish before the sadness that


Follow out there , I will find some sense more per hour just